Dear Diary:
Its been awhile since I have written anything in you, I have been busy with family and other BS. I barely have time for myself, so naturally I did not notice til recently that I was depriving myself. It was not intentional, time has flew past since the break up.
Masturbation has been holding me over, and going to sleep next to an empty pillow I have grown use to it.
I have remained amicable with "Mr"for who knows what reason. I know there is no way we are getting back together, I cannot even ask him personal stuff and he gets all uptight. I always hated that about him, he's all up in mind, but you can't ask him shit about his business.
I decided to go out on a date,I have been posted up in the house since he left. I felt like I was kinda hiding from something. Maybe, I am afraid of being attracted to someone and it leading down a road of disaster.
This one guy I had been avoiding, he called to see if I wanted to go out-I finally accepted his invitation. The only reason why I had not been out with him, was he's a artist and business person too. I always said I would "never date a rapper or stripper,etc."because I did not want to be a groupie nor did I want to compete with them.
I wasn't doing shit else, so I got my butt up to get ready and straightened up my room, in case we came back to my place. I took my slow ass time. He kept texting "Dream, do not stand me up again now". LOL,he already knew because I was about to go to bed when I got out of the shower, but for some odd reason I felt I had to do this. I threw on my dress,leaving behind my stiletto's, bra and panties. "Fuck it, he's rushing me and its too hot for all that anyway"I said.
We did wind up coming back to my place, I gave him a mini tour of "De La Casa Dream". We had a couple of drinks, I showed him my site, he was impressed and shocked. He did not know the capacity of what I "do". He said,"I am hooked now, on Ms. Atlanta Thick Dream". "Oh boy, what did I do?" I thought to myself.
He made the first move, he grabbed my waist causing me to fall back on him. Then he kissed me, very hard. His tongue had a lot of force behind it, which meant he could eat pussy really well....and that he did. He ate my pussy from the back to the front, I shook from the pleasure.
This man had me under a spell of some sort-I was surprised how submissive I was being to him. I had no plans of having sex with him....well, not that night. He did all the things my body needed from gentle touching to licking and biting.
I did my best to hold back from making any sounds, I wanted him to work extra hard at pleasing me.
When he dropped his jeans, peeping out his boxers was a huge dick. "OMG,yes lawd,just what I need"saying to myself. I pretended not to look at it, I glanced and grabbed the condoms. As he put on the condom he was talking "Dream I bet you had no clue I had a dick this big". All I could do was shake my head no, and look in amazement.
The sex was awesome, my pussy handled that big dick very well. She was very tight and wet, he enjoyed that a lot. He is very vocal during sex-"oh Dream,this pussy is so fucking good Dream"he kept repeating. Sexually he is very aggressive. He pulled my hair and slapped my ass. "Say my name Dream"...."look at me when I am fucking you Dream"...."I had no clue I'd be fucking you like this Dream, tell me if you like this dick Dream"he wouldn't stop talking.
I loved the lil squealing noise he made when I bounced my ass on his dick and squeezed my pussy muscles on his dick. We did that sequence all night long. I know my neighbors heard us fucking. We took lil breaks to watch TV, when I thought it was over....he would nestle next to me and provide a simple juicy kiss, and it was on again.
All I was thinking throughout the night, "damn, its been a long time since I've got fucked like this" and "damn, can he go" but I held my own despite the ten year age difference between the two of us. He winds up tapping out first. He said,"ok Dream, I tap out...you won".
You know he asked could he own the pussy, hell if he does it like that again....I just might loan it to him,lol. I could wake up to some good dick like that, but have it in my face everyday....I do not know about that one. I maybe open to a relationship of discretion, taking it/him public will more than likely not happen.
I have two other men that I proposed a polyamorous situation too, both were cool with the idea. If he agrees, then that will complete my trio. Unless I have that one who can give me all that I require-quality time, support me in all aspects-sexually, and emotionally.
I know my fans and supporters are looking for more from me, but right now things are slow. My paid to be featured Co Star slots are still an option for those who qualify. My Fantasy Fulfillment/Birthday Party is July9th, that is where my focus has been.
I thought about asking him or the other two to do a flick with me.....nah. Its way too soon, and the other two I have not had sex with yet. Plus, I have NEVER had to ask anyone to Co Star, they've always volunteered to assist.
I have guys who I can shoot with, but i just do not want to for one or two reasons-the vibe is not there or they are a bug-a-boo and do not deserve to even smell my pussy.
And the middle finger goes up to those who did not think I was celibate or have abstained from sex prior to my date night. Hell, its not that hard,lol,just keep your legs closed and avoid the BS....I had to put my foot down,and it worked.
And kiss my phat ass to those who think that a plus size chick does not have options in dating whom she wants. That is such a lie, I have options. I am very picky who I spend my time with.
With that said,write in you later.
~Dream~
