Dear Diary:
After last night,he left me with these things in my head. He put the fucking smackdown on my ass,going on my list of best sexual experiences ever. Yes,it was that great. I want to tell a friend,but instead I will share what is in my head right now with the following random poem:
I miss you when you are not here
I long to have you near
I can still hear your voice whispering softly,affluently in my ear
So much unlike the other brothers
You are more than just a lover
Always focusing on my pleasure
Its all about me
When you are slow stroking or
Tongue kissing my pussy
Deep in me
Your dick continues to grow
You tell me how good it feels
When my juices overflow onto it
Pussy contracting
We look at each others facial expressions
My smile is soft and Angelic
Your face is hard and attentive
Seeing beyond the human eye
The things you see are
Confirmation you are hittin it right
What an unbelievable moment in time
When our mind and bodies are intertwined
Your energy is one of a kind
Nothing could interrupt
Such passion
I anticipate our public displays of affection
From a sloppy kiss to your head firmly pressed
Underneath my dress
Both of our heads
Moving in a circular motion
This energy, my dear lover, is so potent
The Goddess Aphrodite
Must have slipped us some potion
Sprinkled down from the heavens
An exotic mixture of
Condensed lust
We are each others supplement
We both are nutrients
Not one day can pass
Without my lover and friend
Hours spent often consumed in thought of one another
When too much time has passed
The deficiency that was created
Makes us so cranky
Because we miss each other so much
And are ever so horny
Stricken with lust
We often share our desire to fuck
When that's impossible
We settle for stimulating conversation
and goo-goo eyes over lunch
Maybe its just a hunch
I believe, you have some hidden feelings for me
Buried under the selfless pleasure you bestowed upon me
Its in your eyes, its in your touch
So your lips,no need to speak
A denial or confession to me
For you to profess your truly feelings for me
Is not what I seek
I love whatever it is we have
I absolutely adore everything about you
I enjoy missing you
I appreciate the space and privacy
And the attention that you give to me
The more I get of you
Makes it harder for those who may follow you
Keeping a woman like me entirely happy
Its difficult,for some
Yet simple for you
But please, do not get mad when I slip and say"I love you"
I guess, some parts of me have fallen for you
Trust, I have not fallen completely
I look down, all I see is thorns at the bottom of this cliff
I will not take that leap, my love for you has limits
This is why you resist to give into it
I understand now
I do not blame you baby, you're right
Its scary and dangerous
The exceptional sex
Intellectual conversation
Positive energy
Powerful lust
Dammit man, what are we going to do
I fucking want to melt this very moment,thinking of you
I can feel the texture of your dick on my tongue
I want to swallow you every single time you cum
Vividly, I hear you slurping at my pussy
But without the straw
Hell nah, baby....I gota stop this shit, writing these things that I will never say face to face
For tomorrow may or may not come
If it does, I do not want to look dumb
For saying too much
Caught up in the lust
Without any regrets
What's done is done
'Til the next cycle of you
Kisses to you my Boo,
~Dream~
Sunday, September 25, 2011
Thursday, September 22, 2011
Dear Diary-A Dream of A Dream Sept22
Dear Diary:
I woke up well rested after sleeping like a rock. My eyes are swollen like a Henson muppet from my face being plastered onto my mattress.
While I am boiling my water for my morning hot liquid fix, thought I might as well crack you open and release some words onto this page.
Hell, I am just recuperating from a nice and fun weekend spent with friends. It started off kinda wild, but had a fairly good ending.
Early Saturday morning I kept having this recurring dream, I would get up and go pee, and the dream would start right where I left. That rarely happens to me.
In the dream, I was in my newly purchased home sexing in front of the refrigerator. The kitchen was dark,the light from the inside of the frig was the only light in the entire room. We were going at it hard, pulling out items from the frig, and smashing them on our bodies during this freaky fuck session.
Then the dream flashes forward, he and I are driving in the country. We are nestled under the steering wheel, on the open country road. The looks that we give each other, are long and deep. The kisses we exchange are full of definition. We wind up at the county fair, we were happy like children with a major crush, holding hand in hand. I almost felt the need to skip like a school gal filled with glee, but this super machismo man made me keep my composure. So, I walked gracefully, like a Nubian Princess ready to be betrothed. We did not want the day to end.
As we leave the fair, we stopped to enjoy the fall scenery. We paid close attention to the couples, families, and single people moving about like insects. He and I get a kick out of studying people, a freaky fascination. We stayed until the last person left the fair.
We start to kiss and touch, he had me pierced against the tailgate of his truck. He stood behind me, biting on my neck. One hand he had around my waist, the other hand was around my neck firmly but slowly pulling my hair. I had to hold on tight to the rear of the truck, I wanted to collapse to the ground from pleasure. Instead, I stood strong and took what he was giving me.
Although, my over 62 inch ass is a task for most to enter me from behind while standing, he entered me flawlessly. His dick was like cast iron, his length went well beyond his navel, this also made insertion easy. Coitus was slow and deep, each stroke felt like a slow motion punch, but never missing the mark. His dick tickled my cervix, making me bend over slightly, but only to have him bend me upright and fuck me even deeper.
At this point, my pillow is wet from the dream and my pussy is throbbing, moist from nocturnal emissions.
We were almost at climax when I noticed that we were being watched by the caretaker of the fairgrounds. He and I did not speak, although we were startled we did not gasp. We paused to see the reaction of the caretaker. He gave us this look, and a nod to keep going. The caretaker wanted to see us finish our sensual vernissage. And we did just that, gave him the best exhibition he ever saw. The sex was more exciting being watched by this stranger, and a lot more aggressive. I would say an occasional "fuck yeah" and all he kept saying"hell yeah,this is exactly how Daddy wants it,give it to me baby,give it all to me".
I was waiting for the caretaker to whip his dick out and start jerking it, but he just stood there with a smirk on his face. No erection peeping through his trousers, he had to be impotent. Because the fucking we did would make most homo sapiens and extraterrestrials horny. As we were about to cum, the caretaker came closer, we did not stop, we kept going at it. My lover, explodes his hot cum into my pussy, allowing it to run down my thick juicy thighs. He steps back to watch it trickle downward, and the caretaker comes toward me, kneels down and licks me from behind. My honey, is equally awed, he plants the most juicy, all tongue kiss, in my mouth. The caretaker is still licking our hot cum from behind, he goes up higher to my ass and sticks his tongue in there. We are so aroused by this, and could not stop kissing. He allows the caretaker to fuck my ass with his tongue. I cum multiple times from the over stimulation, my thighs are shaking, but the caretaker firmly holds my thighs still while he damned near sucks the shit out my asshole.
I could not take anymore, so i held out my hand, reaching for the caretaker's dick. He gave it to me, I stroked his dick while kissing my lover. The caretaker finger was in my butt, and my honey fingers were in my pussy.
I had to make myself wake up from this wild ass dream, it was killing me how horny I was. And slightly pissed awaking to nothing but my pink teddy bear, and not one man laying next me.
Half sleep I start to text my dream, I told him as much detail as I could before breaking down to call. He picked up, voice deeper than usual,so I know I interrupted his sleep. He did not mind, nor did I apologize. He loves to hear my stories.
I wind up dashing out the house, showered and hair combed within 30 minutes, I am at his house and ringing his door bell. We sit to watch TV,and he was talking about his work week. I told him,"i don't mean to be rude,but can we speed this up,can I push fast forward please". He agreed, and knew what was up. I reached in my pocket, threw down a handful of non latex condoms and lube on his end table. We rapidly undressed. I watched him masturbate for a couple minutes before placing the condom on his light brown speckled dick. He looked like a helpless child, his hands held out in the crucifixion position. I crouched into his lap,we both looked down, as I put his penis inside of my pussy. Oh my,my,my pussy was so tight,juices flowing milky white, the feeling when he broke the seal was indescribable. I rode him like a fucking champion, my left leg bent out to the side,the right leg bent underneath him. Bouncing on that dick like a trampoline. Tits swinging, and my smile bright as a jubilee. I popped my ass up and down on that dick, like I was performing. He thought he was dreaming, hell, I could not believe the energy I had. I felt ecstatic, unfucking stoppable.
He pulled me back to ask,"Dream,why are we fucking like this,after all the things that were said and its been so damned long". I said,"i had to revoke your pussy passport,to prove a point,teach you how not to fuck me over again,and why ask why,you know this has always been my dick,now do not EVER give my shit away again,and SHUT UP and let me continue to fuck the SHIT out of YOU!". And that he did,he did not murmur a word til he had an orgasm "oh DREAM,AHHAAAA,Dream,this pussy is so FUCKING good,OOHHWEE Dream,uuughh". I climbed off his dick slowly, I did not orgasm with him, no need I had my fulfillment mentally, way better than any orgasm.
As I dressed, he asked"are u coming back to fuck me later on, can I give you a key to my place,will you come back". My ego is fed, why would I need to come back, i thought to myself. I replied,"sure,i will come back later". Of course you know, I fed the beast one last time before cutting him off again.
Well, my caffeine fix has kicked in and I am slowly but surely coming down,til my next freaky composition.
~Dream~
I woke up well rested after sleeping like a rock. My eyes are swollen like a Henson muppet from my face being plastered onto my mattress.
While I am boiling my water for my morning hot liquid fix, thought I might as well crack you open and release some words onto this page.
Hell, I am just recuperating from a nice and fun weekend spent with friends. It started off kinda wild, but had a fairly good ending.
Early Saturday morning I kept having this recurring dream, I would get up and go pee, and the dream would start right where I left. That rarely happens to me.
In the dream, I was in my newly purchased home sexing in front of the refrigerator. The kitchen was dark,the light from the inside of the frig was the only light in the entire room. We were going at it hard, pulling out items from the frig, and smashing them on our bodies during this freaky fuck session.
Then the dream flashes forward, he and I are driving in the country. We are nestled under the steering wheel, on the open country road. The looks that we give each other, are long and deep. The kisses we exchange are full of definition. We wind up at the county fair, we were happy like children with a major crush, holding hand in hand. I almost felt the need to skip like a school gal filled with glee, but this super machismo man made me keep my composure. So, I walked gracefully, like a Nubian Princess ready to be betrothed. We did not want the day to end.
As we leave the fair, we stopped to enjoy the fall scenery. We paid close attention to the couples, families, and single people moving about like insects. He and I get a kick out of studying people, a freaky fascination. We stayed until the last person left the fair.
We start to kiss and touch, he had me pierced against the tailgate of his truck. He stood behind me, biting on my neck. One hand he had around my waist, the other hand was around my neck firmly but slowly pulling my hair. I had to hold on tight to the rear of the truck, I wanted to collapse to the ground from pleasure. Instead, I stood strong and took what he was giving me.
Although, my over 62 inch ass is a task for most to enter me from behind while standing, he entered me flawlessly. His dick was like cast iron, his length went well beyond his navel, this also made insertion easy. Coitus was slow and deep, each stroke felt like a slow motion punch, but never missing the mark. His dick tickled my cervix, making me bend over slightly, but only to have him bend me upright and fuck me even deeper.
At this point, my pillow is wet from the dream and my pussy is throbbing, moist from nocturnal emissions.
We were almost at climax when I noticed that we were being watched by the caretaker of the fairgrounds. He and I did not speak, although we were startled we did not gasp. We paused to see the reaction of the caretaker. He gave us this look, and a nod to keep going. The caretaker wanted to see us finish our sensual vernissage. And we did just that, gave him the best exhibition he ever saw. The sex was more exciting being watched by this stranger, and a lot more aggressive. I would say an occasional "fuck yeah" and all he kept saying"hell yeah,this is exactly how Daddy wants it,give it to me baby,give it all to me".
I was waiting for the caretaker to whip his dick out and start jerking it, but he just stood there with a smirk on his face. No erection peeping through his trousers, he had to be impotent. Because the fucking we did would make most homo sapiens and extraterrestrials horny. As we were about to cum, the caretaker came closer, we did not stop, we kept going at it. My lover, explodes his hot cum into my pussy, allowing it to run down my thick juicy thighs. He steps back to watch it trickle downward, and the caretaker comes toward me, kneels down and licks me from behind. My honey, is equally awed, he plants the most juicy, all tongue kiss, in my mouth. The caretaker is still licking our hot cum from behind, he goes up higher to my ass and sticks his tongue in there. We are so aroused by this, and could not stop kissing. He allows the caretaker to fuck my ass with his tongue. I cum multiple times from the over stimulation, my thighs are shaking, but the caretaker firmly holds my thighs still while he damned near sucks the shit out my asshole.
I could not take anymore, so i held out my hand, reaching for the caretaker's dick. He gave it to me, I stroked his dick while kissing my lover. The caretaker finger was in my butt, and my honey fingers were in my pussy.
I had to make myself wake up from this wild ass dream, it was killing me how horny I was. And slightly pissed awaking to nothing but my pink teddy bear, and not one man laying next me.
Half sleep I start to text my dream, I told him as much detail as I could before breaking down to call. He picked up, voice deeper than usual,so I know I interrupted his sleep. He did not mind, nor did I apologize. He loves to hear my stories.
I wind up dashing out the house, showered and hair combed within 30 minutes, I am at his house and ringing his door bell. We sit to watch TV,and he was talking about his work week. I told him,"i don't mean to be rude,but can we speed this up,can I push fast forward please". He agreed, and knew what was up. I reached in my pocket, threw down a handful of non latex condoms and lube on his end table. We rapidly undressed. I watched him masturbate for a couple minutes before placing the condom on his light brown speckled dick. He looked like a helpless child, his hands held out in the crucifixion position. I crouched into his lap,we both looked down, as I put his penis inside of my pussy. Oh my,my,my pussy was so tight,juices flowing milky white, the feeling when he broke the seal was indescribable. I rode him like a fucking champion, my left leg bent out to the side,the right leg bent underneath him. Bouncing on that dick like a trampoline. Tits swinging, and my smile bright as a jubilee. I popped my ass up and down on that dick, like I was performing. He thought he was dreaming, hell, I could not believe the energy I had. I felt ecstatic, unfucking stoppable.
He pulled me back to ask,"Dream,why are we fucking like this,after all the things that were said and its been so damned long". I said,"i had to revoke your pussy passport,to prove a point,teach you how not to fuck me over again,and why ask why,you know this has always been my dick,now do not EVER give my shit away again,and SHUT UP and let me continue to fuck the SHIT out of YOU!". And that he did,he did not murmur a word til he had an orgasm "oh DREAM,AHHAAAA,Dream,this pussy is so FUCKING good,OOHHWEE Dream,uuughh". I climbed off his dick slowly, I did not orgasm with him, no need I had my fulfillment mentally, way better than any orgasm.
As I dressed, he asked"are u coming back to fuck me later on, can I give you a key to my place,will you come back". My ego is fed, why would I need to come back, i thought to myself. I replied,"sure,i will come back later". Of course you know, I fed the beast one last time before cutting him off again.
Well, my caffeine fix has kicked in and I am slowly but surely coming down,til my next freaky composition.
~Dream~
Monday, September 12, 2011
Dear Diary Sept12,Let the Randomness Begin
Dear Diary:
I have been up since 4am, woke up from this totally weird dream. Had to do with money and a man, I tell you those are always on mind. For some odd reason, I just cannot shake the thoughts of this one individual, as much as I want to, and probably need to. I cannot stop thinking about them.
I probably dreamed of money because I could always use some extra,lol, like the person on my mind. I could use a little bit more of them.
I fell asleep after watching an HBO porn documentary, I learned a lot by hearing the views of the industry from seasoned entertainers. I agreed with Heather Hunter when she said it was so much easier dealing with people in the industry, and she is right...its harder dealing with people in the "real world".
I am sure she has had the same struggles I deal with in my personal life. You can conjur up any kind of man...from his height to the size of his penis, but more than likely he is a fan or despise what you do and tries to change you.
People have no clue how difficult it is to try to have a somewhat normal sex life after doing any kind of porn, whether its at home amateur porn or mainstream, the results are pretty much the same.
Men think that I have so much sex, and that I am this sex kitten. LOL, I mean I do love sex and it can be slightly addictive;however, I am selective with whom I play with personally. To be honest, I usually do not have sex no more than twice per month. Sometimes, it can be less if I am holding out based on principle, I am so big on that its not funny.
What's crazy the men I have dealt with personally are more kinkier than myself...lol. A couple have totally got me twisted, suggested things from threesomes to introducing them into the industry also,making our debut into mainstream. IF, I was to have a 3 some with my man/boyfriend/partner/lover it would not be with a girlfriend of mine, it would be with a neutral party or hell, one of his buds. I would never share my man with a girlfriend of mine, sorry guy. Even though I have shared portions of my sex life, I do believe some things are sacred, and that is my primary meat or man.
Which is why I often try to protect him or I try to be as open as I can with what I "do"with my mate. Because its so many myths about women who entertain, I want my partner to be at ease with my chosen path. Often I work too hard at being trusted, when in reality its the other person who should be working on gaining my trust. My past and present is on display, so I am not the random person.
I know its enticing to see a confident women who is curvy and provocative do her thing. Men love it, and yes, we eat up the attention. BUT,its a blessing and a curse. I am a big girl, who can handle the men coming at me in every direction. I confess, I have indulged in a groupie or a few. I have always kept it real with whomever I am seeing, and yet still they cannot be real with me. Why is that??
Over the weekend I listened to my homegirls and their grief with men and horror stories,shit theirs are almost the same as mine, but they are not in the industry. So, tell me what is really going on??
What is with these men, expecting you to bend over backwards and put your pointer finger on your nose. That is too much. I understand the ratio is high, there are a lot of women out here to chose from and to play with. I get that, but most do not want the freaky chick as their primary woman. Nope, most want that woman who is not as sexually experienced or if she is, its from the things you and her have done. These men still wind up having that dip on the side. Because they are not pleased entirely, they need to be filled completely or just fucking greedy. That is why porn is not going anywhere, nor the strip clubs or the entire sex business as a whole. We are sexual beings, and in this society we cannot express ourselves freely without some kind of ridicule. (If a man had it his way,he would choose the woman he can take to worship and to the strip club.) Hate to say, but this is one of the reasons why people are unfaithful...just my opinion.
And its so cool be sexually expressive in my book, but practice safe sex...and keep it real with whom you are sharing your body with on a regular basis. From the beginning coming into the situation get tested, show your results,this is not pillow talk after the condom has broken or you got caught up in the pussy and took the condom off. Yes, its hard to believe that men still take off the rubber with HIV and antibiotic resistant STD's on a major rise.
We as adults must respect sex, from the women and men who chose to do this for a living to those who live an alternative lifestyle. Respect must be there, give it as much as you want it.
LMFAO,at the guy who I made a date night with and canceled because he asked me on the ride over was I going to suck his dick. I do not know why he asked prior to the act, but that was a big mistake. I said yes until he mentioned that he was not going to return the favor. I told him,lol,how are you going to ask me that and not expect to have that required of you. I explained that I am fully tested recently, and offered to show him the results...I was real,yet joking because when he said he was not eating my pussy, there was no way I was fucking him, so what with a condom and so what if i did not suck his dick...i am on principle at this point,ok. Yes ok, I am a Fellatrix sexpert, and I LOVE to give headservice, you HAVE to at least attempt to lick the pussy before I go down on you....so tired of the one-sidedness. Fellas, you can't expect the head if they are not willing to give it to her,that is very fair. I do not care if he only eats my pussy once a week, I will suck the rim off his penis if he at least does it period.
Anyway, getting off my soapbox....my present partner/lover has no clue how I truly feel about him, because he is caught up in the fascination stage, when the reality stage has kicked in, he may be able to see who I am and my real thoughts of him. Trust me, its not what he thinks,and honestly I do not think he really wants to know. Scary thing, he and I are so much alike its sickening. The side he wants to embrace, behind close doors, is the one I am living aloud and often try to escape it. The lover in me wants to share so much, and the friend in me wants to lay the shit on him, read him his rights..left to right. My persona wants to show his ass how its really supposed to be done, and make him lick my stiletto's to show his appreciation.
Well, I am off to start a hellafied week, its been enlightening to divulge, kinda like a bowel movement at 6 am.
Kisses to you,
~Dream~
I have been up since 4am, woke up from this totally weird dream. Had to do with money and a man, I tell you those are always on mind. For some odd reason, I just cannot shake the thoughts of this one individual, as much as I want to, and probably need to. I cannot stop thinking about them.
I probably dreamed of money because I could always use some extra,lol, like the person on my mind. I could use a little bit more of them.
I fell asleep after watching an HBO porn documentary, I learned a lot by hearing the views of the industry from seasoned entertainers. I agreed with Heather Hunter when she said it was so much easier dealing with people in the industry, and she is right...its harder dealing with people in the "real world".
I am sure she has had the same struggles I deal with in my personal life. You can conjur up any kind of man...from his height to the size of his penis, but more than likely he is a fan or despise what you do and tries to change you.
People have no clue how difficult it is to try to have a somewhat normal sex life after doing any kind of porn, whether its at home amateur porn or mainstream, the results are pretty much the same.
Men think that I have so much sex, and that I am this sex kitten. LOL, I mean I do love sex and it can be slightly addictive;however, I am selective with whom I play with personally. To be honest, I usually do not have sex no more than twice per month. Sometimes, it can be less if I am holding out based on principle, I am so big on that its not funny.
What's crazy the men I have dealt with personally are more kinkier than myself...lol. A couple have totally got me twisted, suggested things from threesomes to introducing them into the industry also,making our debut into mainstream. IF, I was to have a 3 some with my man/boyfriend/partner/lover it would not be with a girlfriend of mine, it would be with a neutral party or hell, one of his buds. I would never share my man with a girlfriend of mine, sorry guy. Even though I have shared portions of my sex life, I do believe some things are sacred, and that is my primary meat or man.
Which is why I often try to protect him or I try to be as open as I can with what I "do"with my mate. Because its so many myths about women who entertain, I want my partner to be at ease with my chosen path. Often I work too hard at being trusted, when in reality its the other person who should be working on gaining my trust. My past and present is on display, so I am not the random person.
I know its enticing to see a confident women who is curvy and provocative do her thing. Men love it, and yes, we eat up the attention. BUT,its a blessing and a curse. I am a big girl, who can handle the men coming at me in every direction. I confess, I have indulged in a groupie or a few. I have always kept it real with whomever I am seeing, and yet still they cannot be real with me. Why is that??
Over the weekend I listened to my homegirls and their grief with men and horror stories,shit theirs are almost the same as mine, but they are not in the industry. So, tell me what is really going on??
What is with these men, expecting you to bend over backwards and put your pointer finger on your nose. That is too much. I understand the ratio is high, there are a lot of women out here to chose from and to play with. I get that, but most do not want the freaky chick as their primary woman. Nope, most want that woman who is not as sexually experienced or if she is, its from the things you and her have done. These men still wind up having that dip on the side. Because they are not pleased entirely, they need to be filled completely or just fucking greedy. That is why porn is not going anywhere, nor the strip clubs or the entire sex business as a whole. We are sexual beings, and in this society we cannot express ourselves freely without some kind of ridicule. (If a man had it his way,he would choose the woman he can take to worship and to the strip club.) Hate to say, but this is one of the reasons why people are unfaithful...just my opinion.
And its so cool be sexually expressive in my book, but practice safe sex...and keep it real with whom you are sharing your body with on a regular basis. From the beginning coming into the situation get tested, show your results,this is not pillow talk after the condom has broken or you got caught up in the pussy and took the condom off. Yes, its hard to believe that men still take off the rubber with HIV and antibiotic resistant STD's on a major rise.
We as adults must respect sex, from the women and men who chose to do this for a living to those who live an alternative lifestyle. Respect must be there, give it as much as you want it.
LMFAO,at the guy who I made a date night with and canceled because he asked me on the ride over was I going to suck his dick. I do not know why he asked prior to the act, but that was a big mistake. I said yes until he mentioned that he was not going to return the favor. I told him,lol,how are you going to ask me that and not expect to have that required of you. I explained that I am fully tested recently, and offered to show him the results...I was real,yet joking because when he said he was not eating my pussy, there was no way I was fucking him, so what with a condom and so what if i did not suck his dick...i am on principle at this point,ok. Yes ok, I am a Fellatrix sexpert, and I LOVE to give headservice, you HAVE to at least attempt to lick the pussy before I go down on you....so tired of the one-sidedness. Fellas, you can't expect the head if they are not willing to give it to her,that is very fair. I do not care if he only eats my pussy once a week, I will suck the rim off his penis if he at least does it period.
Anyway, getting off my soapbox....my present partner/lover has no clue how I truly feel about him, because he is caught up in the fascination stage, when the reality stage has kicked in, he may be able to see who I am and my real thoughts of him. Trust me, its not what he thinks,and honestly I do not think he really wants to know. Scary thing, he and I are so much alike its sickening. The side he wants to embrace, behind close doors, is the one I am living aloud and often try to escape it. The lover in me wants to share so much, and the friend in me wants to lay the shit on him, read him his rights..left to right. My persona wants to show his ass how its really supposed to be done, and make him lick my stiletto's to show his appreciation.
Well, I am off to start a hellafied week, its been enlightening to divulge, kinda like a bowel movement at 6 am.
Kisses to you,
~Dream~
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Dear Diary Sept6
Dear Diary:
I am sitting in front of my window, trying to relax, looking at the moon shining so brightly above. My house is totally silent. I can actually think aloud.
Tonight I am on all of my various social networks and sites,ehhh gads, the men are so stalkerish at times,lol. The attention is cool, but I do not let it go to my head. What I yearn for, is nothing a fan or groupie can provide for me.
My weekend was okay,I guess...I did not get any sex prior to my menstrual cycle. So, I had to tough it out, I almost bit my own leg off for that shit. I hated not getting sex prior to my period, its horrible. My sexual peak is really high right before it comes,and when the last drop stops...you can best believe I am just as horny or worse. Somebody son will be tapping this ass very soon because I am close to scheduling a gangbang video shoot or something,just kidding, but my sexual drive has been extremely high lately.
Saturday night, I spent it with my sweetie....due to my cycle, no sex took place. I wanted to at least suck his dick, but I kept my hands to myself. I feared that I would get too aroused and could not finish, so why get all hot&bothered,for nothing. I did enjoy seeing him stroke his dick, while I whispered sweet nothings in his ear. Now that was such a turn on.
I got shit faced drunk on Saturday night too, I was shocked as hell that I did not suck his dick or allow him to fuck me in the ass, hell I was so drunk...the next day my asshole was sore....I thought he had fucked my booty without my knowledge, but he said all we did was had some great conversation and played around with the "L"word. Uuugh,yes...."L-O-V-E"...why in the hell would that word come out? Way too soon for all that. I mean, I care about him, but LOVE him,HAHAA,NO way man, he got some things to iron out before I even allow my heart to go that route with him. I am just saying. Because you know how some people are great hunters, but suck at keeping their "prize" maintained...well, I kinda suspect that is him.
Like, I had to get drunk because he insisted on me sharing my"work"with him, scenes from my website and webpage, he is such the voyeur. The deal was that he was to look not as my lover, but as a porn reviewer. He did good until these couple scenes we came across, he started to compare what we do or have not done. SEE, I knew he could not handle it. NO man can handle what I do, I do not know why they sike themselves out. He was all over analyzing the flicks, saying "you never did that to me" or "you went HAM on his dick,babe you sucked him like he was a fucking King" and the next day the questions did not stop,"what did he DO to earn that"..."I want to know, what did he do to get that kinda treatment from you". Are you freaking serious man, I cannot believe he was drilling me so damned hard. He knows I HATE when he interrogates me, so not cool. I had to explain to him, that it was not a personal scene done with a boyfriend or lover, it was a scene I did with male talent, him being the analytic guy that he is, he should have been able to detect that from the video. But hey, he thinks he knows me totally, but he is far from wrong. The statement he made,"that was not fucking work,that was personal...the eyes do not lie". SHIT,he obviously does not know how good of an actress I am, see...that always fucks with the men I deal with, they underestimate my abilities as a performer, tisk tisk tisk.
All that going back and forth with that inquisition, I wanted him to just come over and fuck the shit out of me. Just do it dammit, since you think I put extra effort into a video scene, and the sex we've had does not mean shit to you. I licked this man pubic to almost his anus and he is ragging on me about a blow job video I did back in 08, get the fuck out. OK, I wear the nigga NUTT-stache and kept on sucking him, OKAY,big freaking deal,lol,I licked close to your asshole my sweet, so what. I reminded him how when we first met, he ate my pussy like Queen Sheba, and we did not fuck. I brought that up only to point out how passionate he is about oral sex also, so do not knock me,geesh.
GRRR,I am so ready to get a real good dick down from this man because he is good with kinda pushing my buttons. I have a smart mouth with him too, so I know that he so wants to punish me with his dick.
I felt that he wanted to fuck me anyway, regardless of my period being on, fuck the booty and pull me by my freshly relaxed hair. I am not going to allow him to anal sex me, that is a treat for the man that sticks around for at least a year, and his dick is borderline IFFY in size, like it could really hurt if he pumps my booty one good time.
I told him that,"the pussy and head is a wonderland within itself,when you master that...then we can talk about everything else". I meant every word, like how in the hell you talking about anal sexing me, and when I do a good Kegal or two, you are ready to cum,lol,HA....so you got jokes baby. I mean, he is not a two minute man, but when he masters sexing me while I look him in the eye,throw all of my 62+inches off ass on him,and I squeeze my pussy muscles on his dick, then we can go onto something else....you are the fucking master,lol,literally.
Shit, my sweetie has a lot of catching up to do...like we have only accomplished one of my sexual fantasies. It was when I jerked him off in the mirror, that was sooo HOT! I am still waiting on my next fantasy, being sexed city view facing Atlanta. I want to talk about what we plan on doing to each other, then do it when we actually see each other, oh he loves when we do that,and teehee....so do I....but I like to add to it. Dammit, I am making myself horny.
I wish that he would do something spontaneous this week like text me from the hallway of my apartment at 3:30am,"open the damned door, I am outside, here to give you this dick you been wanting". If I was awake or not, I would answer that freaking door, after I made sure my breath was tight and my hair was not a hot mess.
Okay, I cannot take it no more. I am going to bed, NO I will not masturbate. The next orgasm I have will be when he sticks his pretty brown meat package inside of me,breaking that post menstrual seal.
Goodnight,
~Dream~
I am sitting in front of my window, trying to relax, looking at the moon shining so brightly above. My house is totally silent. I can actually think aloud.
Tonight I am on all of my various social networks and sites,ehhh gads, the men are so stalkerish at times,lol. The attention is cool, but I do not let it go to my head. What I yearn for, is nothing a fan or groupie can provide for me.
My weekend was okay,I guess...I did not get any sex prior to my menstrual cycle. So, I had to tough it out, I almost bit my own leg off for that shit. I hated not getting sex prior to my period, its horrible. My sexual peak is really high right before it comes,and when the last drop stops...you can best believe I am just as horny or worse. Somebody son will be tapping this ass very soon because I am close to scheduling a gangbang video shoot or something,just kidding, but my sexual drive has been extremely high lately.
Saturday night, I spent it with my sweetie....due to my cycle, no sex took place. I wanted to at least suck his dick, but I kept my hands to myself. I feared that I would get too aroused and could not finish, so why get all hot&bothered,for nothing. I did enjoy seeing him stroke his dick, while I whispered sweet nothings in his ear. Now that was such a turn on.
I got shit faced drunk on Saturday night too, I was shocked as hell that I did not suck his dick or allow him to fuck me in the ass, hell I was so drunk...the next day my asshole was sore....I thought he had fucked my booty without my knowledge, but he said all we did was had some great conversation and played around with the "L"word. Uuugh,yes...."L-O-V-E"...why in the hell would that word come out? Way too soon for all that. I mean, I care about him, but LOVE him,HAHAA,NO way man, he got some things to iron out before I even allow my heart to go that route with him. I am just saying. Because you know how some people are great hunters, but suck at keeping their "prize" maintained...well, I kinda suspect that is him.
Like, I had to get drunk because he insisted on me sharing my"work"with him, scenes from my website and webpage, he is such the voyeur. The deal was that he was to look not as my lover, but as a porn reviewer. He did good until these couple scenes we came across, he started to compare what we do or have not done. SEE, I knew he could not handle it. NO man can handle what I do, I do not know why they sike themselves out. He was all over analyzing the flicks, saying "you never did that to me" or "you went HAM on his dick,babe you sucked him like he was a fucking King" and the next day the questions did not stop,"what did he DO to earn that"..."I want to know, what did he do to get that kinda treatment from you". Are you freaking serious man, I cannot believe he was drilling me so damned hard. He knows I HATE when he interrogates me, so not cool. I had to explain to him, that it was not a personal scene done with a boyfriend or lover, it was a scene I did with male talent, him being the analytic guy that he is, he should have been able to detect that from the video. But hey, he thinks he knows me totally, but he is far from wrong. The statement he made,"that was not fucking work,that was personal...the eyes do not lie". SHIT,he obviously does not know how good of an actress I am, see...that always fucks with the men I deal with, they underestimate my abilities as a performer, tisk tisk tisk.
All that going back and forth with that inquisition, I wanted him to just come over and fuck the shit out of me. Just do it dammit, since you think I put extra effort into a video scene, and the sex we've had does not mean shit to you. I licked this man pubic to almost his anus and he is ragging on me about a blow job video I did back in 08, get the fuck out. OK, I wear the nigga NUTT-stache and kept on sucking him, OKAY,big freaking deal,lol,I licked close to your asshole my sweet, so what. I reminded him how when we first met, he ate my pussy like Queen Sheba, and we did not fuck. I brought that up only to point out how passionate he is about oral sex also, so do not knock me,geesh.
GRRR,I am so ready to get a real good dick down from this man because he is good with kinda pushing my buttons. I have a smart mouth with him too, so I know that he so wants to punish me with his dick.
I felt that he wanted to fuck me anyway, regardless of my period being on, fuck the booty and pull me by my freshly relaxed hair. I am not going to allow him to anal sex me, that is a treat for the man that sticks around for at least a year, and his dick is borderline IFFY in size, like it could really hurt if he pumps my booty one good time.
I told him that,"the pussy and head is a wonderland within itself,when you master that...then we can talk about everything else". I meant every word, like how in the hell you talking about anal sexing me, and when I do a good Kegal or two, you are ready to cum,lol,HA....so you got jokes baby. I mean, he is not a two minute man, but when he masters sexing me while I look him in the eye,throw all of my 62+inches off ass on him,and I squeeze my pussy muscles on his dick, then we can go onto something else....you are the fucking master,lol,literally.
Shit, my sweetie has a lot of catching up to do...like we have only accomplished one of my sexual fantasies. It was when I jerked him off in the mirror, that was sooo HOT! I am still waiting on my next fantasy, being sexed city view facing Atlanta. I want to talk about what we plan on doing to each other, then do it when we actually see each other, oh he loves when we do that,and teehee....so do I....but I like to add to it. Dammit, I am making myself horny.
I wish that he would do something spontaneous this week like text me from the hallway of my apartment at 3:30am,"open the damned door, I am outside, here to give you this dick you been wanting". If I was awake or not, I would answer that freaking door, after I made sure my breath was tight and my hair was not a hot mess.
Okay, I cannot take it no more. I am going to bed, NO I will not masturbate. The next orgasm I have will be when he sticks his pretty brown meat package inside of me,breaking that post menstrual seal.
Goodnight,
~Dream~
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